You know when you have one of those dreams that seems so real you have to just lay in bed and actively think to figure out what is real vs what is fake. Well that’s what happened to me Tuesday May 10th. I awoke from a dream so real I didn’t know what my real life vs my dream world was. When I finally realized that it was more than likely a dream I shook it off and started to get ready for work. The dream played over and over in my head. In my dream, I found out I was pregnant. Pregnant! Of all of the things for me to dream about that seemed to be about the cruelest considering I knew I couldn’t have children.
The morning went on and that dream still consumed my ever thought. I actually started to wonder what if I am pregnant. Now I knew I was not, I had seen all of the photos of my insides, I had been to the doctor several times for them to explain what was happening to me, I knew it was not physically possible for me to be pregnant yet I could not shake the what if feeling that that dream gave me.
On my lunch break I decided to go to Hy-Vee and get some food. While I was there I found myself looking at pregnancy tests good and well knowing I couldn’t be pregnant but I purchased the test anyway. Shaking my head I walked to the check out with my lunch and a test and I just looked at the test as if it was going to tell me I was being a fool.
When I got to work I noticed that I still had some time left on my break so I went down to the second floor where I knew no one would be and I peed on that stick like a champ! I was just sitting there waiting for it to say something and instantly thought why am I doing this to myself, I will just be crushed when it says negative. So I got up, put the test in my purse and threw out the evidence and walked out of the bathroom. Once out I wondered what it said just out of curiosity and I took a quick glance and if felt like all of the air had been sucked right out of me. PREGANT. The test was positive. How could it be positive?! I ran up the stairs to the 5th floor to find my “brother” yet he was not there. In a complete panic I called him asking where he was and explaining what just happened. He was able to calm me down enough for me to get off the phone with him and call the doctors.
I call the doctors and it gave me the option to schedule an appointment or speak with a nurse. Now we all know that if you push the option to speak to a nurse that you will have to leave a message and they will call you later. Well that was not going to fly for me this time so I pushed the option to speak with the scheduling desk and boy howdy I must have sounded like a crazy person telling the poor girl that I just took a test and it says I’m pregnant but the doctors said I couldn’t get pregnant and that I was really freaking out and needed someone to tell me what was going on. The girl on the other end took a long pause and then said “umm, hold on let me get a nurse” and instead of transferring me she actually got a nurse to come to her to speak to me. I proceeded to tell the nurse what had happened and she looked at my chart and reassured me that there was no way for me to be pregnant but asked that I come in so they could see what was going on. As I hung up the phone I noticed an Angel penny at my foot and knew at that moment my grandma was with me.
I left work like a wild fire was following me. When the nurse called me back she told me that she had read over my chart and there was really no way for me to be pregnant but that they would go ahead and do a test and go from there to try and figure out what was going on. I took the test and they had me sit behind a wall while they ran the test. Since I was the only one there I peeked my head around the corner to snoop and watched as the nurse dropped the sample of urine into the testing strip. I watched her face go from non-excrescent to disbelief in .5 seconds. Her head went from the test to my file and back several times. She grabbed another nurse to look and they just looked at each other. Six nurses later and they peeked over at me and said “well you’re pregnant, would you like to come see” shocked I stand up and walk over to see the test and right there in front of my eyes the test said positive and I instantly began to cry. A different nurse walked up to me and all I could say is “how did this happen” she smiled and said “well we can’t explain it but if you believe in miracles, this is one”. More tears fell from my eyes and all brain function was lost.
I headed back to work in shock and when I got there my boss was there. He had not been to work in about 3 months, he got very sick and almost died so none of us had seen him since he was released from the hospital. He looked at me and I said guess what. Me expecting the usual response “what” he responded with “you’re pregnant?” I was stunned! All I could say was Yes. He knew about what the doctors had found because he called to check on my after surgery so he knew I couldn’t get pregnant so for him to guess that was mind blowing to me. He was over the moon excited me for me. Him and his wife hugged me and asked what Troy thought. I then had to tell them that I just found out and he didn’t know yet. He looked right at me and said well go home!
Shoot you don’t have to tell me twice. I drove straight to Babies R Us and found a onesie that said “I’m going to be just like daddy” stuck that in a box along with a note saying coming January 2017 along with the pregnancy test and when I got home he was home early from work. Us giving each other random gifts is a pretty common thing so he would have never suspected anything. He opened the box and looked confused thinking it was a onesie for his brothers baby. He noticed the note and utter shocked crossed his face. He just looks at me and says “are you pregnant?!” I smiled and said yes and the smile on his face is not one I had seen since our wedding day. We hugged and laughed and cried while holding each other just lying there in shock. We were so happy! So many questions but so happy!